Luck or Guides & Guardian Angels? I think the latter.

“Be kind to strangers, because it’s the loving thing to do. Also, you never know – they could be angels.” –Scott Curran

When I reflect on some of the poor decisions or difficult situations I've made and been in, through my life: I've found regardless of how much I tried to self-sabotage, sometimes it just wouldn't happen.

Instead, I've been swept out of harms way by something more powerful than myself or sometimes, due to the kindness of strangers. But with so much negativity and cruelness in the world, you could say it was a 50/50 split on whether the strangers would have helped or hindered me during the encounter.

I personally believe, you cross paths with people who are there to teach you a lesson or reinforce a lesson that you perhaps didn't see or realise the first time it occurred.

I obviously have a strong belief as well, that whatever you put out into the universe will return to you three times over (much like the Three Fold Rule of Wicca).

My life in general, has been a rollercoaster of emotion and inner turmoil. But, since starting my Spiritual Journey and healing a range of trauma I began to notice and maybe even be thankful that my previous attempts self sabotaging didn't work. When I look at what I've discovered on my Spiritual Journey and I've listened to the guidance from my Spirit Guides and Higher self, I can see part of the reason (or purpose) for my time on Earth has been to break cycles. And boy is it what I've done.

Throughout my life, there are situations where I have been the concrete wall that certain people have met which has forced them to redirect or reconsider their life choices to make themselves become a better person. On the other hand, in some situations it has given me the power to have a voice and say "This isn't ok and this isn't going to continue anymore".

At the time, I didn't feel like the concrete wall or like I had a voice, because I felt like a victim and I didn't see the positive in my situation until I had come through it. I can think of some situations right now where the word "positive outcome" doesn't sit comfortably with me, however on a larger scale it hopefully definitely did make a positive change.

I remind myself that life will only throw challenges at you that it knows you can deal with. When struggling alone and for a long period of time, these challenges may feel extremely unachievable and like everything is going against you. But the challenges can be navigated and lessons which need to be learned can be learned. It just takes a little, inner reflection.

For me it's easy to say, because I have awoken fully on my Spiritual Journey since I was in a dark place, which means I feel more able to deal with any future dark places which may come along. I know, I have a bunch of Spirit guides and my higher self to tune into that are all on my side and want the best for me.

Until you have your Spiritual Awakening, which once again remember you have the power, things change in your mind. If you feel you are struggling, seek help to work through what's going on inside and you will be able to Awaken. Accepting the truth is key. Stop trying to ignore or play blind to things, it won't help you on your Spiritual Journey. If you want things to change then you have to change.

I came to understand, the pain caused by those experiences is something which will come back to me in abundance later in life.

I didn't let the world turn me bitter, I just struggled internally and that makes perfect sense. Who wouldn't, if you've been on the receiving end of mean and hurtful things? It distorts the way you see yourself.

Today I find, if my pain and suffering can change someone else's actions or stop one less person from experiencing the same, then I am happy and at peace.

I will take all of the self care and inner work needed afterwards, as long as I've made a change. The change needed to happen and the Universe saw the light and strength in me to be the person to make that change. So I am thankful. I admit, it's hard being the breaker of cycles but it's all for a reason. A reason where lessons are learned and our Spiritual Awareness increases and we project love and light into the world even if sometimes we do have to act as a bounce-off-board to get people to change their direction.

Whilst traveling, I've realised I've had most of encounters with my Spirit Guides or Guardian Angel's. Whatever term you see fit.

Unfortunately, the people who they sent to express the kindness didn't leave any details, so I was unable to thank them for their actions. Sometimes I want to offer so much more to my Spirit Guides and the Universe than a simple "thanks". But I believe that if that was meant the be, then it would be possible.

I'll briefly talk about two experiences I had; one before my Spiritual Awakening and one after.

An Angel of Protection

I was 19 years old and I was acting carelessly. I was in a foreign country and my inner demons and conflicts were really taking a hold. I was in the capital, drinking and partying with a group of "friends" and housemates, when the alcohol seemed to take its toll. I already was struggling with depression and anxiety and months earlier had attempted suicide. (Problem's don't go away, no matter how far you run from them)

Someone within the group was crying over a breakup and loss of their friend who had recently died in a local car accident, which triggered some other people to start to get upset too.

At this point, I had this overwhelming fear of dread and anxiety about an issue which was very personal to me and I began to spiral into that feeling of hopelessness and helplessness. I began to feel very upset which then spiralled me into a feeling of depression and mindset of difficult thoughts.

The people around me gave me hugs and motivational speeches about not feeling too overwhelmed or putting too much pressure on myself, which did make me giggle. However, the sadness and overwhelming feeling still lingered because I couldn't tell them honestly about the feeling that was taking over my body or the thoughts that were entering my mind.

It was early hours of the morning and it had started rainning hard, the people I was with decided to call it a night and go home after the variety of emotions we'd all experienced. I decided that I was going to stay in the city alone, I told them to eat McDonald's. Instead, I decided to go take a walk by the harbour and Viaduct.

My makeup was a mess, my hair was a mess and I was soaked as I had no coat and I was only wearing party dress and heels.I remember battling my thoughts as I walked down to the water front. People passing me were laughing, cheering and running to seek shelter from the heavens that had just opened. I was walking steadily because, I was in no particular rush. I was too in my head to really be taking in anything around me.

To keep this story relatively high, I will skip the part of what happened when I was down by the water front but, I spent around about half an hour pacing the harbour in the rain and fighting my inner thoughts of ending my life.

I eventually managed to drag myself away and started to feel extremely helpless as I realised I had no money to get me home ( I was living 1 hour outside of the city), I had about 5 minutes before the last bus left, my phone battery was entirely flat and the city was now near flooding (it was built on a hill with a dip near the bottom).

As I made my way back into the heart of the city, a young man maybe in his 20's and dressed all in black came up behind me and started talking to me. He asked if I was ok and I was still very intoxicated from the alcohol. I don't know where he came from and he seemed to be alone. I was walking all over the place, and then he offered me his black jacket.

I was at such a low point, I had no regard for my safety at all. This was something I had struggled with a lot before my Spiritual Awakening, which is why I feel that I was kept safe regardless of what I did because I was here to serve a bigger purpose. As we walked, he realised I wasn't a local and started to ask me about where I lived and what I was doing in the city so late. As I mentioned earlier, there was a 50/50 on whether he was going to help or hinder me, especially as a year later, a young, female solo traveller was murdered in the exact same city.

After talking, I told him how I was stuck and didn't really have any desire to go home and basically revealed how isolated I was.

This young man, bought me a McDonald's and sat with me whilst I ate it. Still somewhat intoxicated, I asked him questions about what he was doing and why he was in the city. My favourite part of it all though, was that he just sat with me. After finishing our food and talking for a bit, he called me a taxi and payed for it. I thanked him for everything I had and wished him all the best, but there was nothing I could actually give him for his kindness. He told me the taxi should take me straight home and he told me to stay safe and it was nice to meet me.

Honestly to this day, my heart goes out to him and I channel so much love and energy towards him in gratitude because, if it hadn't have been for him that night then what might have happened to me was unthinkable. I was clearly in no real state to be walking around alone, especially in a city with such fast flowing traffic and a lot of water and bridges. I never got is name, but I will always remember him and what he wore. Maybe our paths will cross again some day in the future in better circumstances.

I sure hope so, because he saved me when I needed it most.

An Angel to Take Me Home or The Three Fold Law

This experience wasn't that too long ago. Again, I was in a foreign country and I had attracted a man who was also from the UK. We spent a lot of time together and I think that was because we were both from the UK. It was nice to have someone who understood but at the same time, I had grown and experienced a lot since my last (guide) encounter so I was lowkey cautious of him. Anyway, we spent about a day or so talking with each other and we got food and drinks etc etc, and then we came to an arrangement that we would exchange some money. He was leaving and I was just arriving and I guess we thought we'd do our own little "currency exchange".

The situation basically ended up falling through one way or another and I lost £10 that I gave to him. From the kindness and goodness of my heart, I had given my money to him, with him not having fulfilled his share of the deal. Initially, I was angry but ultimately I knew there was nothing I could do as he was long gone. It may have been an accident, it may have been intentional.

But from what I learned was it seemed more like an intentional act, due to something that had happened previously to him.

Fast forward a week or so just before the Coronavirus lockdown happened, and I was in a different country making a flying visit. Things, as you can imagine, got hectic pretty quickly as countries started to close borders left, right and centre. I ended up having to leave the country I was visiting in, before 9am the next morning because their borders were being locked down and all public transport was to be cancelled. It was already 7pm.

I managed to book an emergency bus ticket out of the city and back to where I was staying with the remainder of my budget. During the bus ride home, I found out I had no place to stay upon returning because I had been "fired/kicked out" from my current place of stay/job because I now posed a risk of carrying CoronaVirus.

Everything crumbled around me in a matter of minutes and I knew I didn't have money to book any more accommodation (because I had already lost money for leaving so early) and then my flight home wasn't until 2/3 weeks later. All flights were booked up leaving immediately due to the Corona outbreak. So I was returning to a country, I had no where to stay.

On the 3 hour bus ride back to collect my things, a British woman in her 50's asked me if I knew what I was going to do upon arrival.

It was like she could see the worries and fears inside my head. I explained to her, I didn't have any change on me to get the bus to the airport as that was going to be the only place I could stay until I got myself sorted. The bus to the airport was 2.50euros.

The lady gave me 30euros in cash. I told her I couldn't possibly accept the money, because she was also trying to get home like me. She expressed that her husband and her had a villa they planned to stay in until their flights left the next morning. She continued to push the money at me, and told me it was better for me to "have some money in my back pocket" after getting the bus to the airport.

I smiled warmly at her and accepted the money with all the gratitude I had to give. I thanked her repeatedly on the bus and told her I could transfer her the money because she had a British bank account and I wouldn't have to pay conversion fees but she was reluctant. Even when we arrived and got off the bus, I attempted to thank her again and asked her if I could transfer the money but she still denied it. She wished me a safe journey home and hoped that everything worked out for me. I did the same.

That 30euros she gave me was a huge life saver. It played a huge role in getting me home and safe during a time of when I had lost everything and CoronaVirus was wrecking havoc.

I had booked an emergency flight home costing £120 only to find out, the airline had released too many seats and it would take 12-14 days for my money to be refused. Again, eating into the very low fund I had left in my savings.

I put this down to the magical work of my Spirit guides, when I recall what happened with my £10 a couple of weeks earlier. Though it does seem to be like the Three Fold Law of Wicca, which states everything you put out into the Universe will come back three times over.

I have never intentionally tried to hurt anyone in my life and I think that, as I mentioned before, I have been extremely lucky in a range of situations thanks to both my Spirit Guides and the positive vibes I send into the Universe being returned to me.

I don't believe I've been lucky though, I believe it is a combination of; being unable to self sabotage because I was needed to fulfil my purpose with the guidance of the Universe. There have been times where I have felt unable to go on, and my Spirit Guides (which I didn't know at the time) have sat with me through the hurt and the pain, guiding me and giving me the inner strength I need to continue.

My Spirit Guides, Higher Self and powers of the universe in whole are deserving of so many thanks, although I believe it's like a Yin and Yan energy and I can do them proud simply by spreading awareness and positivity and they'll continue to protect and guide me when I need it most.

You've probably had similar experiences in your life, I think a lot of people have. Guardian Angels aren't all that common and usually protect people from danger or injury as well as influence many other areas of life. I bet if you thought about it, you could find some experiences in your own life which you should pay gratitude too.

Thanks for reading and until next time,

Peace and Love x